The pills work fairly well to combat the severe irritability that made me so impossible to live with.
They don't make the urge to cut go away but they make me strong enough so I can tell it to shut up.
But they don't combat the loneliness.
I wish that I would see personal emails in my inbox.
I wish that someone might call me.
I wish I had the courage to follow up on seeing if that EVP fellow could get anything from my father.
I wish I still believed in anything.
But I just don't any more.
And I am very, very alone.
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Hu? Am I too late?
Loneliness is one of the hardest experiences to endure, I agree.
BTW, thanks for sharing on my blog. I liked that you got even and threw the key for the file cabinet. Sometimes little things like that help us.
I'd like me some of them pills.
Nietzche said "Flee into thy solitude. Keep thyself from the flies and the pestilent men"
Not a bad turn of phrase.
Considering his personality, his advice probably worked well, for him. But as to how he kept himself away from himself, I just don't know.
masterymistery at cosmic rapture
Nessa, you and me both
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