I feel like a freak and a failure most of the time. Only thing that keeps me going is my animals and supporting my son on his journey to eventually becoming a doctor. I don't know how I deserved such a good son--I was always a disappointment to my family.
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And you are a writer. I lately had a pretty bad time, it took me some energy to crawl out of the bed around midday. I think it is a kind of ebb and tide.
Do not accept feeling "unworth" or beeing the dissapoinment - it's something thrown at you by others - even when these others are related (I know it hurts more) you have the possibility and the strength to built yourself, to stand in front of a mirror and to say "That's me - and I like meself!" I know that you are no dissapointment.
"I feel like a freak and a failure most of the time."
I know that feeling all too well...it used to be my constant state of being. (I still kind of feel like a freak, but in a good way most of the time!)
I promise you it's not true. Even though you may feel it so strongly right now, your writing and your support of your son - and just YOU - are proof that it's not true.
Take care.
Thank you both for your kind words. The fact that there are a few good people helps me get through it.
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