The Suicide Queen said it better than I can so I am taking her words and making them my own.
Are we friends ? please read if you are not sure !
I try and learn something new about myself every day... on that same note, "people" tend to revile themselves to me everyday as well... either verbally or by their actions... or inactions... I happen to be going through a very difficult period in my life. I have cut myself off from any "outside" pain... I swallowed it all up internally...
However, one thing I can not deal with, and never have been able to deal with... is rejection... personal rejection brings me more pain than all of my negative experiences put together! I am who I am... and I will not change that for anyone. I see the world in black and white, and to me, the grey area promotes drama and bullshit... I refuse to live in that zone... nor will I walk on eggshells anymore...
I have wasted too much of my life walking on eggshells... If we are mere "surface level" friends... this is not the place for you... feel feel to follow me on Twitter @faycinacroud or on Facebook but I am saving this place for "true" friends... and if you think we are "surface level" friends, then this is not the place for you. Twitter, Facebook, fine... but not here... This is a place for the friends I love and who love me...
I look at it this way… I may have a very short time left on this earth… I am very volatile and while I have "just talked" about suicide for years, it is a real possibility that I may take the plunge any time, and the possibility grows stronger and stronger as I lose more and more. I want to be surrounded by people who love me… is that so wrong ? I need “True” dependable friends at this point in my life and I do not have the energy to waste on providing a "jolly time happy place" for “surface level” friends…
If you want the (usually) funny shit, go to UNDEAD or RBUMM. Hell, they could use some readers. You can also go to the UNDEAD in the Netherworld or Short Time Attention Span Abbreviated News or KHEL 666 pages on Facebook. Either look them up or go to the links through the banners in the sidebar on the blogs.
If you care about animals and want to connect on that level, go to Animal Anarchy. There is also an Animal Anarchy page on Facebook. There is a link in the sidebar of the blog.
And if you are a troll, please just DIE, DIE, DIE, FUCKING DIE!!!!
I really have no patience for users, abusers, or especially piece of shit fucking worthless excuses for existing, aka Trolls.
Honestly, the one thing I ever wanted to do in this life is have fun and die happy.
So much for dreams.
Happy Xmahannukwanzyule.
