I miss the interaction I used to have on my blogs. I never had a lot of visitors but there were some people who tended to interact with me and there was a rapport. I'm developing that with new people and that's a plus. At least one of the people that I felt close ties with turned out to be a far bigger jerk than I could have possibly imagined. I still don't understand this individual's animosity. But if someone's like that, it's no good hanging onto them--although obviously there's still a part of me that is. One does not need people like that in their life.
I always found it hard to get up and face the day, but it's been harder since my father died. However, it's nearly 11 AM. Time for brunch (translate: last night's leftovers) and pills and working on this damn science report. Only this unit and one more unit and that class is done!
Maybe one day facing the sun won't hurt so much. But it has ever since I was a teenager so I suppose that's kind of wishful thinking. I prefer the night. It hides the tears.
2 comments:
I'm behind on your blogs and I wanted to tell you I am sorry for the loss of your father. I didnt know til just now.
Raine, my blogs are not worth being ahead on. I'm a pretty useless excuse for a human being. Nobody wants to be around me, and I can't blame them. You, by the way, are not the jerk to whom I referred. This individual did something extremely callous which took me completely by surprise because I always thought they were a nice person. Wouldn't be the first time I was wrong about something like that, though.
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